limni @limni@pawbs.club

#introductions

howdy! i'm a queer computer cat who occasionally rants about coding and retrocomputing and cartoon animal people

i'm always trying to learn lots of things, and will occasionally toot about that

i have a mostly unironic appreciation for hackers and the wachovski's speed racer, though i acknowledge the problematic and objectively terrible aspects of them both

i know that someday i'll emerge from my comfy coccoon and devour the very fabric of space-time

singing along to the beths is helping somewhat <3

having an anxious day for some reason -- still have a lot to get done, but there's a part of me that just wants to hermit

is there a word for when you stare at a shitty stucco ceiling long enough that the textured surface starts to ebb and flow and shift like a gently rippling pond?

my book juggling is getting out of control again. i need to freeze my reading list for a bit until i actually finish something

i'm having a good day :3

hmm, anyone know of any trans/furry friendly pagan/magick-oriented telegram groups or discord servers?

reading and listening to cheesy doom metal while i wait for my morning caffeine high to subside ☕

i think i like the autumn version of myself best, or at least that's when i seem to feel the most calm and contemplative

idk if it's like this for anyone else, but i feel like my personality changes slightly with each season. once the air starts to change, it's like i can feel myself changing with it, the weight of myself shifting and reconfiguring itself in different ways

you ever get that feeling like your alarm clock is going off when you're already awake?

fukkin jazzed that ff8 on switch is less than a month away, tho

upside/downside, i retail therapy'd myself a pile of books that should be arriving piecemeal over the next couple of weeks. didn't need to spend the money, but i'm glad that i'm getting back in the habit of reading again

sorry about that, i added CWs to my Morning Rant

like, i can see where you'd have sympathetic catharsis if this happens in the context of a preexisting unbalanced power dynamic, like a shitty boss or something

i still don't like it, but i can understand it (a whole other can of worms in how it ignores the systems that created the original conditions of abuse)

but, something just doesn't seem right to me when these tactics are used against the already downtrodden, especially when the aggressor is part of a privileged class

i just... absolutely hate the trope where some edgy straight-talker miraculously transforms someone by berating them and dragging their perceived hypocrisy and apathy into the light

first of all, it just reeks of ~thanks, i'm cured

& while sometimes you need a bit of a shake-up to get your shit together, these scenes are almost always played as a form of social dominance or comeuppance

i guess that's more than just a feeling, huh?

you ever get the feeling like you're about to dream about a particular place before you're even asleep?

when you can feel the gravity of a particular dreamscape, the tendrils of environmental memory starting to drag you down into its own particular form or level of consciousness

idk why so many of my bottomier fantasies boil down to: get wasted and wander into the woods, then get topped by some supernatural monster dude