limni @limni@pawbs.club

chili mango and dry smoked salmon is a surprisingly good combo

i'm covered in paint and sawdust and feeling pretty darn good about my life

like, i want to understand a lot of this mystic shit, but i also want to blast the gender binary into the gravity well of a black hole

a lot of these mysteries and secrets and shit that just turn out to be cishet sex magic ring kind of strange as someone who is both trans and queer, or at least feel more than a little alien to me

i wonder if this stuff feels more profound or affirming to straight folks, or whether it comes off just as strange

hop-scotching between multiple systems while trying to work through MMM and Kybernetos is kind of a juggling act, but every step forward is bringing back or at the very least rendering comprehensible more and more lost memories from my last foray into the weird and witchy. not 100% sure how to feel about that, but at least i have a community this time.

listening to the Espers on a crisp autumn morning ♥

if limni was a dragon their hoard would just be a mountain-shaped labyrinth of overflowing bookshelves

had a really bad flashback yesterday and started repeating old patterns of running away and emotionally divesting and i really really need to stop doing that

so behind on sleep ;_;

really looking forward to catching up this weekend

listening to New Order and chilling in the reading room ♥

had kind of a bizarre Fuck It, Let's Do Magick moment a month or so ago and everything has been fucking weird nonstop since

if i were on drugs right now, this would probably be what i would consider a Rather Good Time, but i'm not. i'm probably just exhausted from lack of sleep

having a slightly less lucid day than usual, but at least this one is enjoyable. just have to make it through my work day while my body feels like it's being caressed and rocked by cascades of vibrating energy. no big.

i just wanna hole up with a dragon's hoard of books and spend the whole day studying

reading the book of baphomet by vayne & wyrd. the editing is a bit spotty, but there is some really beautiful writing in these pages

went on a short walk by the river during my lunch break, listening to a mix of adult mom and queen of jeans on my old sansa

it was good :3